My Mamaw....

You know what? My Mamaw lived to be 91 years old....and I never wanted to imagine my life without her in it. Last week we got the call I knew would come but did not want to hear. They expected her to live only a few days. We left the next morning heading home with so much sadness....we did not make it in time. That really broke my heart and now 1 week later I think back to that phone call we got, telling us that she went peacefully holding my cousins hand while he sang Amazing Grace to her, and I could not ask for more. We held a private ceremony and I know it was just what she would have wanted. Did we cry? Of course but we got a chuckle in there too.

 She was an amazing woman! She was independant and took care of everything on her own for the last 32 years. She taught me so much! Like how to make a delicious cheesecake for one thing! She loved me and she loved my family so very much. I guess since I was the only granddaughter followed now by 2 great granddaughters we just has a special bond. I spent summers growing up with her and my cousins....while cleaning out stuff from the house we talked about the summers we spent together at her house....oh so many memories to treasure! I will miss calling her on the phone and our visits home. Selfishly I had hoped she would make it to see our next baby girl come home. She had told me when she found out that she guessed since we would have another little girl we could just leave Sadena with her. Let me tell you.....Sadena might have stayed.

She adored her Mamaw and it was like she sensed something was wrong. The night before she went in the hospital, while I was napping, she packed 2 bags and put them by the door with her toys and such. When I asked her what they were for she told me we were going to Mamaw's..I told her we were not but 4 days later we were packing the car to go. I explained the best I could to an almost 5 year old what was happening and that night in the hotel she told me she would not see Mamaw because she would be with Jesus....the call came at 315am. Sadena's first question was.....are the doctors driving Mamaw to Jesus? Oh the sweet innocense of a child.

I will miss her every day and I hope to always make her proud in my choices and with my family! Oh so loved and never forgotten! We love you!

meeting Mamaw in 2008

in 2008 with her great grandchildren

picture taken by sadena in july

they had a special bond too....july 2011

july 2011

our last picture together..july 2011

july 2011

december 1, 2011

i love this....she always climbed right up in her lap! dec 2011

her legacy will live on in her great grandchildren!